So lately I have been kind of over the whole wedding planning thing. I have just been worn out between being a mom and taking care of my other responsibilities I just have not been that excited. I guess part of me is punishing myself for doing things out of order.
It has never mattered to me before. I know my God loves me, he forgives me, and he would never want me to feel this way. However, the women who run my mothers group feel another way. They feel that because I am not yet married and have a child I should not be in a higher role in leadership then I am. So while I understand where they are coming from and I know that the bible says what I did was wrong, I also do not feel as if I should have been punished for the things I did three years ago, which was before I found my way back to Christ.
I love my moms group and I know that this situation has put many of them in a awkward place. So while I would never fault any of them for sharing their concerns with me, I am still feeling hurt. These women have had such a huge impact on my life all I wanted was the opportunity to do the same for someone else.
So yes I am having a hard time getting out of this funk and getting the planning for my wedding done. It was not supposed to be this way, planning my wedding to the most amazing man in the world is one of the most exciting things I should ever do in my life and both he and I deserve for me to be excited and enjoying this. So from now on I am going to get out of this funk. I am going to call the invitation place and the florist and my wedding planner tomorrow and work on getting back on board.
So how about any of you that might come along and read this, what funk have you been in lately? Did you have any moments in your wedding planning where you wished it was just over with and you were married already? How did you get out of your funk? Leave me a comment and let me know you stopped by. I will return the favor.